Self Reflection - About Me

Hmm... me... let's see... let's start with who i am... Okay... I'm a pretty simple guy... Words to describe me... Starting from the strongest one (this is SELF REFLECTION so your thoughts... keep em to yourself... this is how i feel abt me) : Loyal, friendly, sensitive, generous, determined, feelings-oriented, honest. Hmmm, i'll say more abt myself now...

I'm a easy going person, and I like to have fun. I'm talkative around people I know, but kinda passive and silent around those that i'm either not to familiar with or those that i don't know... Loyalty is what i look for in my friends because in this world, you can't trust just anyone. True friends are hard to come by nowadays. I detest backstabbers who spread unbased rumours abt me and my friends. Hypocrites are also not on my friends list, because they hide what they really are. However, the worst people i hate are cheaters. I hate cheaters. They lie, break your trust and do anything but tell the truth. I personally do not like cheaters during tests and exams and especially those who cheat because they want to be better than others. I can say that i've never cheated in tests and exams before but often get very uncomfortable when people cheat. I tend to look around during tests to see if anyone's cheating and i dunno why :(

I'm afraid of failing. Failure is my worst fear especially when i work so hard for it and then screw the whole thing up. I'm afraid of being alone. Afraid of looking around to see no one i know... afraid of looking back and seeing no one there. I'm afraid (this is really odd) of open windows and doors. Dunno, it's just scary. Everytime i sleep, i'll make sure that the windows are locked. And lastly, i'm afraid of friends who let me down when i've put so much trust in them :(

I get jealous very easily. When i see others getting things that i don't, i get very envious. Usually, i'll keep trying to get what they have. So this can be seen in a good and bad way. I guess. I get cocky very easily. Very boastful and proud sometimes probably because every little achievement is so important to me. This is my worst trait because it is through pride that i've lost quite a few of my friends.. I like the feeling though... and i dunno why but most of the time i try to suppress it, only to overcompensate for my vice and then in the end end up without a sense of achievement...

I'll try to be humble, towards friends usually. I'll try to be understanding, and less egoistic. Friends are very important to me. And i don't mean acquaintances, hi-bye 'friends' but friends who care and understand. I have no room for enemies because i have friends by my side. However, there are some people whom i do not really like. I'm not like other people, who solve issues using the UN method, mediation and stuff... I'm a person who distinguishes clearly, right from wrong and nothing in between. But i'm usually swayed by my emotions... unfortunately. I treasure friendships very much, no matter how small because of the companionship and love shared among everyone.

I love camps. Engaging, interactive. I like knowing new friends. Knowing new friends means learning new things.

I love sharing sessions. i love talking one to one. I love group outings. I love progression not instantaneous results.